gone

why would we never knew what we got till it's gone?
how could i carry on
the day you went away

cause i've been missing you so much i have to say
been crying since the day
the day you went away

-M2M

Pain

You know what.
We are all addicted to something that could take all the pains away.

We are all still attached to the past that keep haunting us with a good sense that we need.

We are all attracted to those people that built such a good memory in our life.

Even that particular person is a stranger to us right now.

Betul cakap amed.
We don't miss the person or the people. We miss all the memories that been created together.

At the end of the day, believe it or not we are all craving for the presence of that person.
Bullshit semua nya.

Pedih

"Pernah tak kau rindu someone tu.."

"Pernah."

"Bodoh. Aku tak habis cakap lagi. Pernah tak kau rindu someone tu even kau tahu dia tak ambik port pasal kau pun."

"Itu bodoh namanya."

"Babi."

"Tapi aku selalu je buat."

"Pedih en."

Med

We all have that one friend yang nampak super gila ganas kat luar.

Deep down to her or his heart, ada sekelumit rasa kasih sayang yang tak pernah diutarakan.

Thanks Amed, for making my birthday worth a thousand appreciation.
Prank, layan aku buat benda bosan, last minute plan sewa kereta, kereta pulak rosak, tukar kereta lain, cari Foodalicious, Foodalicious pulak tutup, belanja aku makan nasi arab kat zam zam, drive pergi palam.

(( Banyak lagi sebenarnya aku terhutang budi kat kau, tapi skop entry kali ni menjurus kepada birthday aku. ))

I'm happy, can't put it into words.

Total bitch

"It's like I love this one guy and I'm having such a complete special relationship with him. But then I enjoy having so much fun with this senior. But then the senior is having a big crush on this one girl and I don't know why it's hurt. All of a sudden my boyfriend turns out to be such a complete asshole. What's wrong with me?"

You're easily get attached. 

Forget those people. 

Appreciate those yang ada depan mata you.

Sometimes it's good to keep flirting rather than you terikat at one particular guy.

Come bro, you muda lagi.

Buat apa nak serious sangat?

Have fun.

(( the other side of me ))

I can't drown my demons.

They know how to swim.

Drown

"Kau tau tak rasa depressed tu cana?"

"Sedih?"

"It's more than that. It's like you're drowning and you see everyone else is breathing"

People are people

Everyone yang datang singgah dalam hidup kita,

For sure akan bawak banyak memori,

No matter either it's a good memory or a bad one.

Tugas kita senang je.

Jangan nak bukak aib orang tu bila kita dah start gaduh.

Takkan lah sebab satu kesalahan akan tutup semua kebaikan yang dia pernah buat kat kau?

Wallahualam. 

"People are people and sometimes our minds change"

- Thomas Hobbes

"No wonder lah berlagak, sombong. Budak law rupanya"

Different people have different kind of ways to defend themselves.

Salah ke kalau nak protect diri sendiri menggunakan hujah-hujah yang boleh diterima akal?

Japgi kalau nak protect diri pakai kaki tangan cakap kurang ajar.

Cakap Belakang

Tengok tajuk pun dah "pergh setan nya tajuk"
Lagi setan those people yang suka sangat nak cakap/sembang/kutuk belakang

Senang cerita, kalau kawan kau tu dah banyak buat baik dengan kau,
Dah banyak tolong cover kau,
Dah banyak benda dia share dengan kau,
Dah kenapa kau nak cakap belakang pasal dia?
In public pulak tu.

Memasing dah besar, dah tau mana baik mana buruk.
Takkan benda macam tu pun tak boleh nak pikir?

Jangan sampai satu masa kawan kau tu malas nak gaduh atau dengar apa yang kau nak explain.
Jangan sampai satu tahap dia angkat kaki blah.

Ha nak sangat kutuk dia belakang-belakang.
Ambik dia blah dari kau depan-depan.

Grow up

Aku takda hal bab-bab nak buat kawan ni.
Takda lah friendly sangat, tapi boleh lah.

But I like to keep my circle small.

2-3 bulan kenal is nothing, you can never see the darkest side of me, the demons in me.

Bukan aku nak cakap aku jahat, aku jugak ada kelemahan yang kadang-kadang tak nampak.

Tapi kelemahan tu bila dah ketara, aku pantang tiba-tiba orang panggil aku hipokrit.

Apa kau gila nak tunjuk belang depan orang ramai?

and aku paling tak suka bebenor orang ambik port pasal aku.

SUMPAH TAK SUKA.

I live my life, I make mistakes, and I learn.

Bila dah masuk universiti, satu benda je aku nak kejar.

CGPA & MUET OH LORD FOR THE SAKE OF MY FUTURE.

Aku takda masa nak involve dalam drama yang penuh tragis dalam friendship ke, couple ke.

Aku dah 2 tahun sekolah perempuan, cukup-cukup lah dengan drama queen, penat tahu penat?

Kau jangan ingat semua orang ada masa nak selami apa yang kau rasa, semua orang ada priority sendiri.

Bukan nak selfish, but that's the truth.

"Give her chance, it's her first time to fall in love"

Go fuck yourself with all the bloody feelings you got, ain't nobody's got time for that.

"Give him chance, his mistakes got hikmah don't you think so"

Go fuck yourself kalau semua kesalahan kau nak rebut pakai hikmah.

I'm tired with everyone yang suka sangat besar-besarkan keadaan.

I'm tired with everyone yang unpredictable, kalau YES cakap YES and kalau NO cakap NO you fucker.

Hidup ni senang, mudah, orang macam kau yang suka menyusahkan hidup orang lain.

Mula lah nak post memacam kat IG ke TWITTER ke mintak simpati.

That is totally pathetic, ain't nobody got time for that.