Monday Blues

I have no idea what's wrong with me.

Setiap hari isnin je, ada jeee benda nak jadi T_T

I know everything or every problems that I have must somehow datang dari diri I sendiri.

But then I pun tak faham apa salah I T_____T

Macam pagi tadi harini subuh awal sikit sebab I dengar orang azan then terus gi subuh then lepas subuh I terus lights off and baring and then "krekkkkk" rupanya I baring atas my spectacle!

or MY NEW SPECTACLE!

I was like "crap crap crap I'm dead nu'uh not going to tell anyone about this!"

*go to shower and tells roomate*

*make a phone call and berharap abah tak angkat and yes he was the one yang angkat*

Terus menangis and I have no idea kenapa then sejam lepas tu my mom call tanya what happened sebab tak pernah pernah call pagi pagi and nangis lagi sekali.

Then terus siap siap nak gi kelas dah jalan sampai tengah bukit tu nampak 2 biji bas and both of the buses tak stop and I was like "let it go Teah, some things are not meant for you"

and then tersalah naik bas nasib baik tanya pakcik driver if the bus is going to FUU and he said no and I have to hop off the bus and take another bus and go straight to my faculty.

I could literally feel myself shattered apart, mentally and physically.

and the worst part I don't even understand kat mana I salah :(

Maybe yes, I careless about my spectacle.

Thanks to Abang Afiq sebab free pagi tadi bawak pergi Bangi Gateway and tukar frame.

Mula mula freaked out kot sebab first kedai cakap takda frame sebab rare sangat cermin lol and the guy told me kalau nak pakai emergency boleh buat dalam bajet RM100 something which is quite cheap.

I said no sebab my power sangat tinggi and silau teruk plus spec baru kot T_T

so I went to another shop and Alhamdulillah dia ada jumpa and terbanglah my RM200++ just for the sake of the frame.

and then terus rushing balik fakulti sebab ada kelas and then dah sampai fakulti diaorang cakap prof cancel kelas Ya Allah renyuk lagi hati kecilku ini yang berbisik sesama sendiri.

Stay at the faculty until 4 and went to Kiosk with Neb beli dinner.

and sampai bilik memang dah tak sedap badan and terus mandi and buat kerja sedikit.

Took 1 tablet of panadol and tidur sekejap after maghrib until Yong called and tanya pasal PBL esok.

I think I'm feeling better but I could still feel the heat.

Everything happened in just one freaking day and this has taught me well to become a better person in a sense where I should be more careful with my stuff.

I should walk fast and chase the bus.

I don't know man why I write this stuff and here we go reading all my bullcraps no no this is not a complaint, I'm just trying to sort out everything yang I ingat apa yang terjadi harini and that shouldn't be a bad thing, right?

Wish me luck for the PBL tomorrow and goodnight everyone xoxo

Super Juniors

Entry kali ni is fully dedicated to my juniors yang nak masuk second semester for your foundation studies :)

Hello everyone :)

Congratulations on your results, tak kisahlah dean list ke tak but I'm sure everyone above 3.0 and that's already a good achievement for the first semester.

I'm really proud bila some of you guys came to me and told me about your results like "omg the first person to tell the good news!" lol haha ;p

Dah nak masuk second semester ni, I believe everyone dah ada motivation based on your previous results. Jangan down, it's a battlefield where you guys samada win it or learn from it :)

Anne Anuar, akak tau awak takut sangat nak pilih law at the first place but I managed to convince you that everything will be great.

and it turns out great kan? Dean list kot, tak sia sia jual buku kat awak ;p

and akak lagi happy bila awak still pilih my books, notes and past year questions for the second semester.

I believe in you Anne, you can do your best.

"Kita nak ikut kak Teah, habis foundation and then terus masuk UKM for degree."

that's so thoughtful of you but you still have choices where to further so no worries sweety :)

To Syazana, I hope you really enjoy another few months for your foundation studies.

you decided to follow my steps since high school lagi, and here you are in UiTM studying law.

Just so you know I really believe in you and Anne, jaga satu sama lain lagi lagi dah pindah Dengkil.

Help each other out cause second semester is not going to be the same anymore.

I still remember how me and Amed struggled macam nak mati sebab core subjects dah jadi 4 and it wasn't that easy to score.

But no worries, everything seems hard and difficult at first.

To start, you don't have to be good but to be good, you really have to start from NOW :)

Everytime tutorial, be prepared with past year questions,

and before lectures, be prepared with notes and slides.

Night before lectures, have some rough ideas what you're going to learn.

Have a good sleep pattern, jangan stay up lama sangat.

Jangan ponteng lectures and tutorials.

and not to forget, solat jangan tinggal.

I wish you guys all the best :)

A Little Bit Hazy

"He's gone now," she clenches her fists and a tear escapes her closed eyelids. "He's gone now but you still believe he'll turn up at your door every morning with your coffee how you like it and you pretend not to hear when your friends tell you that you can do better than a boy who will charm you with a smile and a few words but laughs at the way you gaze back as soon as you turn the other way."

"So yeah," she laughs bitterly, "I'd say love is pretty blind."

- Your love made me delusional, 15th October 2015 via afadingdancer

and why is that?

and why do I really believe in Anis' words "5 months quite long but believe me, time will heal eventually and if ada jodoh, Insyallah."

and she continued "I've gone through the same stuff and it took us a year to be apart, I was completely devastated Teah but it was worth, he came back to me."

I don't know what I was thinking today.

I don't know if I'm shattered or not, because I didn't cry at all.

To be honest, I'm completely holding on to his words until today.

"Kita study dulu, and if ada jodoh, who knows?" 

Another day, another blessing!

Hello everyone!

How was your day? Was it good? What did you have for dinner? :D

...and rindu I tak? haha!

As for me, it has been a week of cuti pertengahan semester and it feels sooo good to be home, Alhamdulillah :)

except for tomorrow I balik KL jap and yeah a little bit hectic actually.

Train at 5am from Ipoh and a night before I tak tidur.

Plus masa tu I wore my new clarks and somehow kaki I melecet T_T

After all, Alhamdulillah to be surrounded with good people that helped me a lont along the way.

My dad sanggup drive dari rumah before 4am.

My mom prepare lunchbox seawal 2am.

not to forget my PBL group members : Sakdee, Yong & Low.

Low and Yong came earlier that morning to pick sakdee and I kat UKM KTM Station.

We went back to UKM to get few stuff and had our breakfast.

By 10.15 we were already at the first law firm that I surveyed few days before : Lailawati Husain & Co.

Masa kitaorang sampai dia takda lagi, just an intern which was apparently my super senior doing her LLB at UiTM Shah Alam.

Almost 2 hours the temu bual session and macam macam Puan Lailwati pesan like :

"...being a lawyer is not that easy"

"...be humble in everything and everyone you meet in life"

"...the worst enemy is actually your client"

"...work in prosecution but think like a real criminal"

"...as a defend counsel, we must prove the knowledge"

and many more!

by 1 o'clock terus drive pergi Setapak and had our lunch there.

Dalam 2.30pm we walked from Setapak Central (previously known as KL Festival City) to Starparc Point and I guess masa tu lah kaki dah melecet teruk sebab takda jejantas for us to walk straight to our 2nd law firm, Ram Reza & Muhammad.

The lawyer, Puan Susilawati Saleh, kakak kepada one my PBL group member, Sakdiyah Saleh (Sakdee), she was sooo friendly and terang satu satu sampailah kitaorang betul betul faham.

Less than 1 hour kitaorang jumpa dia but then betul betul padat and content.

by by 4pm Low terus drive kitaorang pergi Gombak LRT Station, drop me, Sakdee & Yong.

Sakdee went straight to her car while me and Yong ambik LRT balik KL Sentral.

Dalam LRT I dengan Yong borak borak and complaint pasal KTM and other stuff but at the same time I felt bersyukur sebab semua dah settle.

By 4.45pm dah sampai KL Sentral and I terus pergi Boost to buy my favourite drink, Mango Magic.

Masa tu ada lah terfikir nak masuk NU sekejap sebab train lambat lagi kot, 5.45pm.

But then bila teringat kaki pun tak best jalan so I went straight to ETS gate and duduk situ.

Until I was greeted by a chinese lady and borak borak about work, study, her marriage and stuff.

dalam 5.30pm gate dah bukak and I told her it was really nice to talk someone like her.

Masuk je train, I terus tidur but I did set my alarm 7.45pm just in case kalau tak terbangun.

by 8.10pm dah sampai Ipoh and it was really nice to see my mom again, standing there lambai-lambai tangan just like all the time :)

the point is, even penat ulang-alik and stuff, I never get worried cause people around me must be like :

"Kenapa nak ulang-alik? Taknak tidur rumah aku ke..."

"Is it okay for you to do all this stuff? Tell me if you need anything Teah..."

"You nak minum apa? Let me get it for you..."

"Makcik, you kira sekali eh semua ni..." 

and many more.

Thank you Allah for sending me all these angels, all these kind-hearted & beautiful people.

Thank you for all this blessings and happy moments with my family & friends :)
and the most important thing I should be thankful for my struggle because without it I wouldn't have stumbled across my strength :)

"those who moves forward with a happy spirit will find that things always work out!"

A Reall Short Movie Review // Love, Rosie

If things are meant to be, it will be.

Maybe not now, or tomorrow.

You never knew how great His plan is.

You just gotta wait for it while working on other important things in life.

Insyallah.

of large space & pandent lamps

Me and anis were discussing on our tutorial questions of Contracts when she asked me :

Teah, kau nak rumah macam mana?

Soalan yang dia tanya tu out of nowhere and lagi susah dari soalan contracts actually hahaha.
Moving on to my answer :

Aku suka something big, tinggi, red brick walls, large windows, apartment maybe?

Yes, before I nak settle down with my other half, I want my own space where my friends boleh datang and hang around and where I have the space for my family members gather around for sometimes.

wooden floor & large space!

and I don't really like doors, I prefer to have this kind of connection between rooms :D

red brick walls, good lighting and cozy couches :)

large windows! <3

I like it when the apartment provides large windows where I could have my own views of the city at night :D

and I really love it to keep it simple and neat :)

pendant lamps above the counter :)

string lights and few vases of green plants.

more brick walls!

stools and more pendant lamps :)

Seriously I could actually spend my whole weekend googling pictures of apartment lol.

Idk when did I actually have this weird addiction/obsession/whatever you call it.

I watched Little Manhattan & 500 Days of Summer few months ago and both movies came out with beautiful apartments in the NY and I really love it.

Having your own apartment in KL shouldn't be a bad idea, KL beautiful what :P