10 Signs of Maturity

Forgiving someone who isn't sorry

Knowing when to speak and when to be silent

Walking away from toxic people

Not needing the last word

Letting go of negative self-talk

Keeping a small circle of quality friends

Not stressing over mindless drama

Never apologizing for doing what's best for you

Giving without expectations

Being grateful for the little things in life

Do-do-do

Marry the person who tells you exactly what he expects and follows through.

Marry the person who demands your respect.

Marry the person who can talk politics, even if her opinions are different from yours.

Marry the person whose eyes flicker with passion about a number of different subjects.

Marry the person who won't let you get away with slacking on your talents.

Marry the person who pushes you to be better every day.

Marry the person with whom you sometimes fight.

Marry the person who is your equal or greater.

and don't forget to marry someone that is crazy as you.

Time

The thing is, when a relationship doesn't work, it is not necessarily a person's fault.

A person might have a good trait eg : a keeper.

But the time might be wrong.

He or she is not in the position to keep one another within a distance YET.

A man might be ready to marry the person he loves but she's still pursuing her ambition.

There's nothing wrong with the two of them.

There's nothing wrong with the job he has or the dream she's chasing.

There's nothing wrong with the dog that lives inside his house.

It is no one's fault.

The time isn't right and therefore, it doesn't mean one should give up.

You can see a couple once madly in love but broke up for nearly 10 years and married each other not long after that.

It is just the matter of time till everything falls into one place.

For the time being?

LIVE.

Bubbly //

When you're 21 (I'm turning this September), you realize everyone around you has their partner already.

Like last time masa I pergi rumah Neb, guess what boyfriend dia datang rumah dia and went straight to see her mom LIKE OMG I CAN'T EVEN AFFORD A BOYFRIEND.

(I'm cyring, in a cool way)

I don't know if any of you know this but the last relationship I had was in 2015 and it ended in the same year LMAO I KNOW.

But whatever.

I am for now at some point actually alright being on my own.

BUT IT IS NOT OK WHEN YOUR BESTFRIEND ALSO GOT PARTNER ALREADY LEPASTU I NAK LEPAK DENGAN SIAPA???

This is so frustrating and Alhamdulillah waktu raya haritu none of my relatives or people yang datang beraya tanya "Dah ada boyfriend ke?" instead they asked "macam mana duduk kat Filipina?"

Jahat tak kalau I berdoa since Neb dah ada boyfriend, I nak mintak kat Tuhan supaya jodoh Anis datang lambat and saing dengan jodoh I supaya I tak lonely if jodoh dia sampai awal? Jahat ke? 

(Anis never read my blog sokay)

So goodnight! xx

Love, Rosie

Choosing the person you want to share your life with is one of the most important decisions any of us makes. 

Ever.

Because when it's wrong, it turns your life to grey.

and sometimes, sometimes you don't even notice until you wake up one morning, and realize years have gone by.

We both know about that one, Alex.

Your friendship has brought glorious technicolor to my life.

It's been there in the darkest of times, and I am the luckiest person alive for that gift.

I hope I didn't take it for granted.

I think maybe I did, because sometimes you don't see that the best thing that's ever happened to you is sitting there, right under your nose.

But that's fine too.

It really is.

Because I've realized that no matter where you are, or what you're doing, or who you're with, I will always, honestly, truly, completely, love you.

- Love, Rosie

I completely aware I've already posted about this movie before but I don't quite remember if I did say something about it.

I watched it for the second time tonight and to be honest it is true when you watch or read a particular story for the second time, it gets better.

What happened between the main characters (Alex & Rosie) are too much to take, for me.

Alex moved to Boston, Rosie got pregnant, Alex moved in with Sally, Rosie got married to the father of her child, Alex got married to their schoolmate which was Bethany, and Rosie found a letter that was written by Alex months before but was hidden by her stupid husband.

If I were Rosie, I would definitely agreed to her friend to just take the drugs and killed myself already the minute I knew I was pregnant.

But Rosie listened to her dad, before he died, to pursue whatever dreams she had before her life turned to chaos.

I couldn't recall if she ever said she was in mess or difficulty cause Katie was the best thing ever happened to her.

I was quite forgotten how the movie actually ended lol but it turned out great for them to be together, Alex and Rosie, finally after 12 years of denial.

"It is better late than never", Rosie.

Youth // Troye Sivan

It is good to be home.

Going back to the arms of people that really love me etc my family, my friends etc.

3 days ago Anis and I went to visit Neb in Alor Gajah, Malacca.

We were so lucky her mom was fine when we decided to stay there for 2 nights.

We spent time talking and visiting Bandar Hilir.

I know some of you might be saying "Alah Melaka je pun".

You missed the point. It doesn't matter where I go actually as long as I'm with the people that I care of.

While we were discussing our next trip (Perak & Penang In Sha Allah),

Anis was saying "I don't mind visiting a particular place twice. As long as it's with you people"

I love the two of you, a lot xx

I don't know how many times I have said this but I love you so much Neb ❤️

Thank you for your endless love and stupid jokes 💕

(Neb's boyfriend) Looking forward to getting to know you more!

From the past few years, I learnt friendship is something you saw it coming.
But you never knew when it will actually stop and gone.

But the good thing comes when there are memories to be cherished :)

Something Just Like This //

I told my mom semalam yang I dah mula bosan duduk rumah ahaha.

But I've told her in a nice way of course.

I cakap kat dia back in Manila I selalunya kat luar dorm.

Cause most of my friends macam tu.

Like Linda, a friend form Cambodia, she will only stay inside the dorm untuk tidur, mandi and get some rests.

I used to walk with her especially inside the campus. 

I got to say this, UST is the safest place I've been in my entire life.

The security guards are everywhere and they will not let you enter the campus without your student ID, that's the rule so I always had to keep it with me whenever I was outside.

The first time I pergi UST, I was like "oh they have Starbucks inside the campus. Cool"

and also McDonald's (they call it as MakDok), 7 Eleven, IceBergs, Pancake House etc.

I learnt you actually don't need a big campus.

It's not like I'm complaining, UKM is actually too big ahahaha.

We have to travel by cars and if you don't have one, you gotta wait for a bus.

Unlike UST, you just have to walk from block to block.

Everything is inside the campus and for the first time in my life, I actually enjoyed walking around.

Especially with someone.

Yes, I did walking around with a person that I actually liked (past tense) alot.

I still remember there was this one time we decided to have a talk in the middle of the football field.

and 5 minutes later while I was trying to pick the grass, there was this huge spotlight on us and we were like "Oh shit I forgot we couldn't sit around in the middle of the field"

Lot of people do that actually.

Sitting around and walking around with their friends.

I don't get to see that kind of atmosphere in my home university.

and sometimes right after class, I usually decided to hand around before going back to the dorm.

It was either I would go straight to the library to catch up with some notes or went to the nearest Starbucks to get some coffee.

To be honest, when I was in Manila, I enjoyed being alone.

I talked about this with Linda whether it is actually healthy to be alone and she said "Sure. As long as you're not lonely"

Sometimes I would go and get my food alone, I did my laundry without anyone accompanying me.

I walked and done some errands by my own.

Linda did the same too and we actually met when it was time for dinner (usually).

Sure enough I'm actually missing all of these, and I actually have no idea why I put them here haha.

x

The Sandbox Virtues

Here's the thing : with all due respect, guys, I don't think you're always equipped to figure things out on your own.

Sometimes, there's a lot of unnecessary meanness that happen while you're trying to sort who you want to be, who your friends are, who your friends are not.

Adults spend a lot of time talking about bullying in school these days, but the real problem isn't as obvious as one kid throwing a Slurpee in another kid's face. 

It's about social isolation. 

It's about cruel jokes.

It's about the way kids treat one another.

I've seen it with my own eyes, how old friends can turn against each other.

It seems, sometimes, that it's not enough for them to go their separate ways - they literally have to "ice" their old buddies out to prove to their new friends that they're no longer still friends.

That's the kind of stuff I don't find acceptable.

Fine, don't be friends anymore : but stay kind about it.

Be respectful.

Is that too much to ask?

- The Sandbox Virtues by R.J. Palacio

Mahsyar

"Teah banyak sangat dah makan tak halal tu sbb tu flawless"

The first time I heard about this, I was like, "wow okay it's already 2k17 man but we still have these fucked up assholes"

I don't even know you and that is fortunate for you since I can't contact and ask you for explanation but here is a message for you : You better brace yourself for a hella journey during padang mahsyar, merangkak lah you cari I nanti, did you really think it was a joke? A harsh one maybe but kalau dah sampai tabur fitnah, I hope you and your ass better be ready for any consequences followed.

I will not take this entry down as long as that person come forward and apologize, end of story.

To be honest, I tak marah.

I cursed alot and that's because I'm sad.

Somehow when people talk bad things about me, it kills me on the inside.

Sure enough people will say "Don't give a shit about it".

But I'm the kind of person who considers every words people throw at me.

I'm sorry I'm such a soft person but it is what it is.

I've been thinking about this lately and I hope people will understand at the end of the day, you should stop talking about other people and start building your own story to prove the world you are actually living. 

Adios.

Skincare Routine

(Not a paid review hahaha)

Some people keep asking I pakai apa for my face and this is a quick entry about it, so keep reading!

1. Micellar water

Before or after putting on my makeup, I usually guna facial cotton untuk remove any excess dirts guna any micellar water (Garnier, Maybelline, Loreal) As for now I pakai micellar water from Simple. So far I guna not bad lah. Simple brand is good for sensitive skin like mine.

2. Cleanser

For cleanser, I tak pernah tukar. I dari dulu sampai sekarang pakai Cetaphil since it is known for mild soap (soothes the skin). I ada try few local filipino soap bar but then I baca it is not good if you punya cleanser jenis yang akan buat muka you tegang selepas you cuci. If that case happens to you, you should stop using that kind of cleanser. So far, Cetaphil is good! Btw I guna yang oily skin cleanser :)

3. Toner

For toner, before this I guna a toner from Simple. I pakai dalam 2-3 botol. But ever since I pergi Philippines, I asked around what kind of toner should I use sebab cuaca sana panas sangat and kulit I pulak oily gila. They suggested me to use a toner from Cleteque. So yeah, dua dua bagus and I'm not quite sure kalau brand Cleteque ada kat Malaysia.

4. Moisturizer

Siapa cakap kalau oily skin takyah moisturize? Haritu I nampak thread pasal oily skin kat Twitter and perempuan tu cakap for normal skin, you guys pakai moisturizer but for oily skin, you pakai yang hydrating punya. I tak tau details but yeah I tak survey lagi moisturizer or any hydrating products yet so I pakai Vaseline petroleum jelly je sekarang. Last time muka I burned and Alhamdulillah a few days lepas I apply Vaseline, it helped a lot.

5. Sunblock

For sunblock, I usually pakai if I decide to go out without any foundation (since foundation provided SPF). So to protect my skin even without my foundation, I pakai sunblock from Cleteque. This one is really good and can even be used for body. 

So yeah that's all for my skincare routine and my pimple stop growing ever since I paid lot of attention using these products. You can simply find any of these in Malaysia's drugstores (Watsons, Guardian) or Philippines Drugstore (Mercury). Toodles!

Home

Hello everyone! How are you?

It has been a week since I balik dari Philippines (Yes I'm home already!)

Last 2 days I terserempak kawan sekolah and dia cakap "Amboi balik Malaysia tak kasi tahu langsung kenapa?"

(I think I already announced on Facebook and Instagram.......) but whatever haha.

I got home on June 13th but the next day I terus pergi rumah abang kat Penang.

My dad cakap I dengan my mom patut duduk dengan dia for a few days since wife dia and Zahraa takda.

He's a doctor and currently completing his 2 years housemanship in Seberang Jaya Hospital.

To be honest, I kesian tengok keadaan dia.

Dia pergi kerja around 6 am and balik around 6 pm (kalau tak tagging, if tagging, he will get home around 10 pm).

I told this to my parents cakap "Kesian nya kat Abang Ijai, few hours je kat rumah."

and then ayah I cakap "Itulah. Bila kamu kat sana and kami cakap selalu datang rumah dia, kamu kenalah faham."

The moment we got there, kitorang kemas kemas rumah dia.

I don't know why but deep inside I rasa dia lonely and majorly because wife dia balik Terengganu for a week. Ofcourse, dah lah balik kerja penat, tup tup bukak pintu rumah, anak bini takda. No wonder dia mintak my mom and I temankan. At the first place I macam bengang kat dia sebab I baru je balik and dia dah demand I pergi rumah dia. But after tengok keadaan dia, now I understand.

For the first time in a couple of years, we were in the house together.

Complete 5 orang and bila makan sekali, I rasa bersyukur sangat.

For some people, these kind of things macam "eleh family dinner je pun, what's the big deal?"

Do yourself a favor, believe and count your blessings.

I still remember 3 weeks before I got home, I talked to a friend.

I told him I like staying in Manila cause everything is here eg if I want something in urgent, I could simply walk to Ministop at 3 am or I get hungry at 4 am I could actually go to McDonals within 3 mins.

but my friend never understands.

Dia simple cakap "hahahaha just because McDonalds around the corner, you happy duduk situ? Orang lain semua happy duduk Malaysia sebab family dekat"

I terus menangis lepas tu.

I wasn't mad at him, I was disappointed.

He missed the point.

I told him "You should be proud of me. At least I duduk sini takda nak homesick. At least there are few stuffs that make me happy and cara you macam nak cakap I duduk sini tak ingat my own parents"

Friendly reminder you people, you stop talking to understand and digest what other people are saying.

You don't stop talking simply to put on your arguments.

We stop talking to listen, not to be waiting your turn to lash everything you want to say.

Ofcourse, I was happy in Manila.

I didn't mention "Oh how much I miss my parents bla bla"

My parents taught me to grow up without being afraid yang you akan rindukan parents you.

I grow and I learnt, I rindu but I simpan dalam hati without having to mention about it.

Yet some people mungkin ada cara diorang sendiri and I dengan cara I.

The point is still the same, we will always miss our parents and our family but both of us have different ways to show it.

Adios.

Mom <3

My Love // Lee Hi

I miss having dinner with my family.

Where everyone sits around and talking.

My dad usually will be the one who will ask lot of question, I've never seen someone that is really interested in my life as much as he does haha.

Mom usually will ask me if I want more rice.

But I started to remind her not to ask me that question 2 years ago and she respects it until now.

She knows I'm growing up and I know what and when I want something.

I don't know man, I feel so grateful sometimes because my parents are the ones that will never complaint when I actually decide on something without discussing with them.

I guess I actually have already earned their trusts and I have to remind myself not to break it.

They are the most beautiful souls I ever met and my friends told me the same thing.

I guess that's how it works, whenever my friends meet my parents, they could actually get along really well.

God bless both of you and I can't figure out what did I do to deserve both of you guys xx

Moon Lovers

I have just finished watching a korean drama that has been suggested by my friend.

It is called Scarlet Heart : Ryeo.

It took me 3 days to finish the series.

I don't know what to do with my life now.

I asked my brother a while ago if he could actually bought me Harry Style's CD.

I really hope he would actually fulfil my wish cause I really want this for now and I know he is the best brother I ever had (I hope you read this tho)

and I'm thinking of coming back here on June 13th, 13 days after I gone back to Malaysia.

I was invited for the student conference thingy but the thing is, it is during the holy Ramadhan and i'm not sure if it's fine for my mom.

I'm turning 21 this September yet I have so many stuff for now.

Labor Day

I was having dinner with Linda a couple of nights ago.

We actually discussed we things cause at that time both of us were quite frustrated with people around us.

First Rule : Someone else's belonging is his property, not a charity.

I don't get it. If you can't afford something, don't bother asking someone else to provide that stuff for you. Life doesn't work that way. Be grateful of what you have. Linda and I came to the conclusion "Even if we are bestfriend, I'm still gonna respect you and know my limit" That is so true. Most us around here just knew each other like, less than 5 months? Don't act like you know me well and assume that everything gonna be fine when you actually use my stuff for your own good. This is 2017 already and you should by now know your limit.

Second Rule : If people clean the room for you, the least you could do is not to mess it up again.

I was cleaning the room one day with my roomate. The next person entered the room just threw away her shoes or sandals or whatever she was wearing on her feet. My roomate was like "wtf I just cleaned the room" but we decided not to talk about it since IT IS FUCKING 2017 DON'T YOU HAVE MANNERS. Linda and I also talked about this like how some people DON'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT TO CLEAN THE BATHROOM. I actually cleaned the bathroom few times before and FOR NOW I JUST WAIT FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO CLEAN BUT IT HAS BEEN A MONTH AND I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE SO I JUST DECIDED TO CLEAN IT WITH MY ROOMATE. Seriously man, I don't know if the people from your country is as dirty as you. I don't know how some people claim to have a boyfriend when they themselves are dirty type ugh.

Third Rule : Don't counter argument with me.

I hate this. Like, if you wish to counter anything that I just told you, MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A STRONG AND VALID ARGUMENT. I ain't gonna waste my time to explain your stupidity ON EVER MATTER YOU DID.

Happy Labor Day everyone & have a good rest xx

Over Again

I don't know if you remember this (Just in case if you read),

but I went to the bakery the one we used to go for breakfast

I ordered my drink and went straight to the second floor,

Too bad the seats we used to have already occupied.

So I chose a table with two seats but it felt strange considering I was alone this time.

Three hours and I realized it was getting dark.

I tried to turn on the study lamp on the table.

It reminded me of you.

The last time we got here you tried so hard to turn on the lamp.

"I paid for this. I deserve to know how it works."

"People are looking at us. They must be wondering who the fuck turn a lamp when it is not dark"

"No. Come on help me"

It was stupid, really.

But I realized I miss those moments, not only that particular moment but all the minutes and second we spent even if it was just for a short time.

Too bad we could never experience all of that over again.

Serendipity

It is going to be a month and a half before I go back to Malaysia.

and my parents came here to visit me in Manila 2 weeks ago.

I'm in between of staying here and wanna go back to my country cause I MISS SPICY FOOD IN MALAYSIA.

Part of me says "Go back and graduate from your law school. You can always come back here and maybe settle down and start a family or something, I don't know but you can always come back here"

Ever since I came here I feel so much happier.

It is not that I wasn't happy in Malaysia.

Back in Malaysia, I got everything.

That's the reason I applied for an exchange programme, I really wanna stay out of my comfort zone.

This is because at some point of my life, I would like to feel and experience how to live in a hard way.

I wanna see how these people grow and expand in terms of their study, economics, developments etc.

It's true when people ask "We believe Malaysia is better than here so why would you choose to study here"

I believe in God.

I believe the reasons he put me here.

I believe all the difficulties of living here leading me to somewhere.

I believe why He put me in a catholic country in the first place when people were arguing my religious belief would be in devastation when I come here.

There's not so much difference compared to Malaysia that is full of people practising Islamic view,

it is just, people here are, nice?

I'm not saying my own people is bad or something, it is just for the first time in my life I'm not afraid to get lost in a foreign land cause people here are free to answer any of my stupid questions.

No stupid lies, no silly judgements etc.

They always try to help a foreigner like me eventhough some of them are not really fluent in English but that's ok.

I will try to update more and I know this entry is kind of ridiculous cause I didn't get to organize it at first.

I have final this Wednesday and let's just hope for the best before I go back to Malaysia.

(There's so much to see here like I haven't gone to the beach but Peter's girlfriend texted me just now asking if I want to go with them to the beach next week omg I'm so excited)

Late Night Snacks

I know I should be happy right now because my parents are coming to spend their time during the easter break.
It's just I feel a little bit regret cause I could actually go back to Malaysia for a week instead they coming here.

I don't have any bad intention or malicious thinkings.
I just miss Malaysia's food hahahahahaha.

I know I sound stupid but IT HAS BEEN 4 MONTHS SINCE I EAT SPICY FOOD AND I CAN'T STAND ANYMORE.

Goodnight everyone and have a good rest xx

so-called Boyfriend

"Your parents gave u a pair of wings and all you do now is limiting yourself in his cage"

- Hanini, 2k17

.................................................................................

This is so true.

I mean you could argue with the statement by saying "Oh uh you know nothing about love. The last relationship that you had was like, what, 4 months? Ha Ha"

Ha Ha to you girl, you just make food of yourself.

Yes the only relationship I had was lasted only for four months and that was because I KNEW BACK THEN I DIDN'T WANT TO SETTLE FOR LESS HA HA NOW"

At least my parents taught me which one is love, and which one JUST-YOU-BEING-AN-IDIOT-OBEYING-YOUR-SO-CALLED-BOYFRIEND.

I have received so many situations like this like "I can't do this or I can't wear this" and when I asked them why they will simply say "because my boyfriend doesn't like it or he will get mad" bla bla

and the worst case is when THEY SIMPLY ASK THEIR BOYFRIEND'S PERMISSION WTF THIS IS ALREADY 2K17 UGH I WANNA SLAP YOUR FACE ALL THE WAY TO YOUR GRAVE IF I COULD.

The point is, don't put yourself in a relationship where your significant other limit you in everything you want to achieve, that is so unhealthy.

Take my advice, don't settle for less.

Don't settle for someone who doesn't give the goddamn freedom you are entitled to.

Who are they? The Constitution? The Supreme Court? That you have to obey all the time? That's a total bullshit.

Be with someone that wishes to see you shining bright like a diamond.

Be with someone that actually doesn't take away your liberties.

It is not always the question whether he is the right person or not.

It is the issue whether he respects you just like how you wanted him to be.

Serendipity

Few weeks when we got here, everyone wanted to go home already haha.

But things are getting better I think cause every picture we posted, the caption would have the hashtag #Iloveithere #Idontwanttogoback 

I have the same case, I love it here.

What makes a place have a special spot in your heart is maybe because of the people, the weather, the food etc I don't know.

I love the weather here, it's not so hot compared to Malaysia as it is rare to find a direct sunlight here.

It is always cloudy.

I love the people too like everytime I get out from the elevator, the caretaker of my dorm together with the security guard will greet me and asking where I'm going or whether I already had my lunch.

Like this morning, I didn't go back to sleep after my Subuh prayer.

I decided to study a bit and took a shower so I got time to do my hair.

I passed by the Ministop and decided to have breakfast there.

I was alone, struggling to eat the chicken cause the fork & spoon they gave me were made of plastic fml but I enjoyed the morning breeze and the view outside the store.

You know the kind of weather right after the rain has stopped, I felt so overwhelmed by this haha.

I decided to sit there and stared outside until Warren stopped right outside the window and waved at me.

He came inside the store and sat in front of me and asked "Are you going to the class? I'll wait for you. Let's walk together"

See. This kind of thing that makes me feel so happy cause in Malaysia most of the time we don't actually walk around the campus.

In Manila, you don't drive because of the bad traffic so you need to walk and thus it gives you more time and room to spend time with your friends, colleagues, etc.

and then there's this one time where I decided to go to Chinatown with 2 friends and one of them said "Walk between me and Jackson so you'll be safe"

or when you meet your lecturer in the campus and they asked about your well-being while saying "I'll be in Malaysia around August, would you mind to drive me around haha" Omg sir I could drive youa round for free cause you're so nice to me I can't even T_T

I don't know what am I supposed to do when I go back to my country and there's no more people like this and I can't complaint cause that's how the society works Idk I'm just going to cherish these moments as for now.

Toodles!

Small Talk

But I don't want small talk.

Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your bestfriend this morning.

Tell me why you never pull back your hair when I ask you to.

Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother's house that one weekend.

Call me when I'm half asleep and tell me why you believe in God.

Tell me about the first time you saw your mom cry.

Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I'll be hanging on to every word you say.

Tell me everything. 

I don't want someone who just talks about the weather.

At this point, the heart of mine wants what it wants.

There's no logic to these things.

You meet someone and you fall in love.

and that's that.

-poemsporn

picky & less

People : "You're gonna end up alone because you're too picky"

Me : "Well you're gonna end up divorced because you settle for less"

Manila

Hello love!

If you ask me, how was Manila?

It was great! But what, do you know what makes it a great country to visit?

The people :)

The loveliest people/citizens/hoomans can be found here in Philippines!

They will never disappoint you, trust me.

The moment I stepped my feet in this country (Jan 13th), the first person I met was the person who's in charged in stamping my passport (customs I think idk what is it lol)

He asked why would I come here and which university I'm going to etc.

The way he talked make me so calm and comfortable (I'm usually nervous when it is time to talk to customs)

He even wished a good luck and told me to enjoy my stay in Manila :)

and then a week after that, I jatuh sakit.

Like I vomited for 6 times during the night and also cirit birit.

I went to the Health Service inside UST (University of Santo Tomas)

After getting the result from the lab, I was assisted by a doctor.

He told me everything about Philippines like the glory times of this country etc.

I would love to pay attention to his words but I wanted to puke so I told him that I want to puke.

Guess what, he stood up and literally pulled me to the nearest sink and asked if I wanted some energy and felt better so I said yes.

He was so nice like I didn't have to pay but he offered me a bed and also provided me a nurse (male and he's so cute and nice and he's so cute did I say it again sorry)

"Tell me if it hurts" 
"Are you okay?"
"You seemed like a person who never does the chores cause we can't find your veins"
isn't he adorable? He took my hand slowly while finding the veins while the doctor continuing his story on Philippines lel.

and I met few nice people well technically they are Vindy's friends (Vindy is my roomate and she's from Indonesia)

They have like a restaurant and they treated us dinner and they were so nice and cute and nice T___T idk why everyone here is so nice I can't T___T

However, I went to the local market few days after my arrival and I swear to God I hate that moment and I don't wish to remember it.

I saw a kid without her pant and I didn't know where the fuck was her mom/dad. She was technically peeing without realizing it.

and I saw a man soundly asleep by the street like it was the best nap he gotten.

I saw a dog looking for food and her nipples are currently swollen so I guessed she was pregnant (I hate this part)

I was lucky I went there with a friend so I wasn't fully focus on the situation but it kept bothering me the whole night and I told my parents about this.

They said it was normal to see stuff like that in every country, and they told me to get used to it (I'm trying really hard)

So yeah, so far everything here is nice and pretty and cloudy, I don't know, I like it here :)

11 scholars : 5 from Myanmar, 2 from Cambodia, 1 from Laos, 1 from Vietnam, 1 from Indonesia & 1 from Malaysia #ASEAN

A friend from Cambodia (Rath) and I in front of the main building of UST (people keep mistaken this as a cathedral because there is a cross on top of the building haha)

During our visit to Lucky Chinatown to celebrate Chinese New Year

1234 //

I miss these hooligans so much it hurts :'(

U-turn

You didn't finish college? 

You can always go back.

You graduated from a public school?

At least you got a degree

You worked at a fast food?

I know you've learned a lot.

You came from a broken family?

Now that's why you're strong.

You didn't get the job?

You can apply again.

You were cheated on?

You're not the loser.

You see my point?

No matter how embarrassing you thing your past is, they're already part of your history and helped shape who you are.

and if you ever feel like getting lost, 

life permits U-turn.

or just simply move on :)

+M.A. Buendía HD