Megan & Liz

This song is quite disturbing.

Random Stuff

At this moment mom is preparing sandwiches for my sahur.

I'm on my bed writing on this.

Tengah makan pisang sebenarnya.

I realize how good banana for our health when I was in boarding school back to 2012.

"Pisang montok" nama dia lol k tak tipu ada tulis kat papan menu Dewan Makan.

One fine morning I was in rush so I didn't take the cereal.

Instead I chose to have banana as my quick breakfast.

Guess what bila dah sampai kelas and rushing nak pergi reading session,

I terlupa pisang ada dalam beg.

Right after assembly and rushing nak kemas meja, cikgu pun masuk.

"Good morning class, take our ur handout yang saya kasi last week."

"Aaaaaalright Miss Foo!" proudly sambil menghempaskan punggung ke atas kerusi yang tak begitu empuk but at least the government provides it for free (they live on my bloody taxes to be exact)

Dah nak habis waktu sekolah baru teringat.

"OH MY GOD GAISSSS AKU TERLUPA ADA PISANG DALAM BEG"

*Bukak bagpack kuda belang*

(  Menangis tersedu sedu  )

Dah penyek pisang gue.

that ass 

You Know What

Maybe we just need that one person who's always been there for you.
The one who helped you at your hardest times.

The one who accepted you for who you are.
The one who wanted to help you change for the better.

The one who didn't give up on you because you knew you could prove everyone including yourself, wrong.

That one particular person who always have faith in you.
The one who always knew that you would turn around and realize that you were the one who always there for him too.

Regardless, fighting and never left.
Argue but never say it's over.

You know, that one particular person who always there for you since day one.

The one who always loved you no matter how hard things get.

Nothing Matters

Went to the Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah this morning submit borang guru ganti.

Pergi nak interview,
Iterview takda hahahahahahahahahasetan.

Then split dengan mak abah.
Diaorang gi pasar mini, I pergi kedai jual barang kahwin

Pergi kedai barang kahwin cari kertas warna,
Kedai pulak buruk takda barang baru.

Then terus masuk pasar mini cari mak abah then dengar "ish beras jasmin takda."
Nama beras pun lagi sedap dari nama orang nowadays lol

Then dah habis beli beras pergi masuk market kat pekan Lenggong.

Plan nak cari tomato, nanas and sengkuang jer.
JER.

Lepas 15 minit abah jinjing beg plastik penuh pisang, sengkuang, tomato etc.
Aku jinjing pucuk paku, ikan termenung, kacang kuda, gula kabung etc.
Mak jijing beg plastik penuh apa tak ingat sebab banyak sangat.

So nak kabor I masuk pasar sebenarnya harini huhu tu JER.

02:15

you see
i dont expect much from people

i
just
wanna
talk

Good Movie

After watching The Purge : Anarchy just now

Something crossed my mind

You know, for a person like me

Does not even know how to use guns

I'd probably be killed

trying to rob a candy store lol

Oh Well

For a long time I've been praying

Praying for our happy ending

Dreaming about  f   o   r   e   v   e   r 

and for us to never be over

Happy around you

Blessed to have you

and I am here for you

Simply because I love you

{m.p}

Blogger Boy Drama Review

I'm not going to write how the story starts but basically it's an old drama series on 8tv.
I don't really remember bila diaorang tayangkan tapi zaman KAMI the series.

The rough idea is that Budi is stucked between 3 young ladies.
Nina, Zehan & Maya.

First let's start with Nina.
She was his very first crush since childhood sampai satu masa dah besar diaorang jumpa balik.
Budi claimed that he still in love in Nina and apparently Nina feels the same way as Budi.
They fall in love but this time at least Nina pun rasa yang sama and no uncertainty between us.

However, rupa-rupanya Nina dah jadi tunangan orang but she didn't tell Budi cause the engagement was set by her father and she doesn't seem to like the man.
They are Chinese by the way.

Let's move on to Zehan.
Things between Budi & Zehan was great sampai mak Budi pun expect diaorang akan kahwin.
It turns out Zehan will marry another man simply by saying she needs a man, not a boy.
Yup, Zehan lagi muda dari Budi.

Budi used to be a love struck and now he's just fucked up with everything.
Mak Budi pun tiba-tiba ada barah otak and she's hoping Budi to get married before she dies.
Budi rasa bersalah and dia just go on dengan plan mak dia untuk try fall in love again with a good young lady named Maya.

Maya is just an ordinary woman kerja sebagai nurse.
Sekali pandang, memang tak akan pandang for kali kedua cause you don't expect her to be so special dalam hati Budi.
But it turns lagi lama Budi kenal dia, Budi learns that she's the one for him.

Simply because Maya is so different from any other women.
She put Budi before anything else.
Budi tak perasan mula-mula sampai satu masa Zehan datang balik dalam hidup Budi as a janda.
Tapi Maya fights for him eventhough there's still a great chance for Zehan and Budi to get back together.

Sebab there's a lot of memories between Zehan and Budi.

In the end, Budi had a dream either to choose his old love Zehan,
or his childhood crush Nina,
or someone who sacrifices her own pride just to get his stupid attention.

Ofcourse la dia pilih Maya.
Baru dia sedar love is not all about what's the things between two people or how long is it.
It's all about sacrificing what you got simply to make that one person stay in your life.

Maya has all of these stuff and she deserves Budi definitely.

Crash

I ' m   f l o o d e d   w i t h   a l l   t h i s   p a i n

K n o w i n g   t h a t   I   w i l l   n e v e r   h o l d   h i m

L i k e   I   d i d   b e f o r e   t h e   s t o r m

I'm trying to keep the lights from going out

and the clouds from ripping my broken heart

They always say a heart is not a home

Without the one who gets you through the storm

M a y b e    I    s h o u l d    g i v e    u p

Poems Porn

I don't know where to start.
I don't know really.

N texted me last night.

"I rasa I macam ada promise you something. and now I rasa bersalah"
"N it's okay. At least we both know what happened"

Back to 4 months ago

"why do people come and go?"

"diaorang bosan kot."

"somehow i takut pulak kalau u tinggalkan i"

"let's not giving up to each other then"

"okay, let's not giving up to each other"

Tak lama lepas tu N pun blah.

He asked me who's the lucky guy.

I said "H".

"He's so lucky to have you".

He asked me if we could see each other.

I said "Why not. We're friends. You have to buy me food."

Apparently he replied me with this :

"Friends? Ah shoot me Teah."

I have no idea what's that supposed to mean.

Back then you still tak boleh move on, how can I help you?

I pun manusia.

So I pun blah.

Bila N claimed "H is so lucky to have you"

Cause he knows I'm a keeper. I have no ego. I put others first.

Now let's move on to H.

H, you never knew how lucky you are.

I gave you my everything.

I chose you over my friends.

I never cried so bad before.

I tak tau sampai bila I boleh stand so strong for you, I pun manusia H.

It's like you're fine without me whereas I kat sini trying so hard to save myself for you.

I hope you're doing the same thing.

I hope we last, I hope we do.

But if we don't, this is how I want you to remember me.

I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeats.

Remember me laughing at your stupid jokes.

Remember me in hysterics for no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I'd recover.

Remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable only for you though.

Remember me happy and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention.

If it comes to it I don't want you to remember the ending.

Remember the beginning.

I want you to remember the first time you knew me H.

Irrelevant

He says friends are not more important than me.
But it doesn't seem so.

The problem is when he doesn't have to study.
And he spends all the day with his friend that he sees over the week as well.

Is he just getting tired of me?
Few hours seem enough for him.

But at the same time he says he would like to see me more and that he loves me.
I don't understand.

I tried to talk to him many times but he only gets angry.

I just want to be somebody's first choice.