30th April

I like cancelled plans.
& empty bookstores.

I like rainy days & thunderstorms.
& quiet coffee shops.

I like messy beds and over-worn pajamas.

Most of all, I like the small joys that a simple life brings.

Major

Hi all, how are you doing? :)

A friend asked me "I have one question. Macam mana kalau one day you kerja bukan yang major you?"

"Like you are being offered for something yang bukan you belajar masa kat uni"

That's a tough question for me to answer like takkan nak jawab tak tahu eventhough he asked me as in engineering career lagilah I tak tahu haha.

but I chose to tell him all these ;

First, you got nothing to lose. Call that as rezeki. Sampai bila you nak terikat dengan major you.

Look at the bright sight. You got to learn and experience something new :D

Like my lecturer pernah cakap "Apa yang you belajar sekarang believe it or not hanya 8% sahaja. Yang lain tu semua you belajar masa you chambering and masa kerja"

Second is, macam I cakap, apa yang datang dari Allah tu rezeki.

Dia dah susun jalan cerita hidup you elok elok dah. You got nothing to worry about.

"Jalan ke hati you macam mana pula?" oh wow.

The thing is dear my friend, you risau sangat dengan apa yang depan you.

You afraid enough all the consequences of the actions yang you ambik.

To be offered working at a company but doesn't fit in your major is not a bad thing.

Just look at the bright side and you're ready to go :)

Gotta Be Humble To Ask Others For Help

"A person giving you advice isn't perfect and has their own shortcomings but they may give you the piece that you are missing"

There's this one time bila orang mintak your own personal advice based on your own personal opinion, bukannya senang.

Like we have to be responsible of what we are saying sebab dah 20 tahun ni fikiran kena matang, mana boleh bagi suggestion or nasihat tanpa proof or authority.

But then it is up to that person nak terima ke tak, you either take it or leave.

No pressure.

Tapi sakit hati juga bila kita dah bagi advice, dah bebel panjang-panjang, that person still dengan hujah dia.

Sometimes I wonder you ni mintak advice ke nak berdebat dengan I?

I tak kisah kalau you nak pertahankan apa yang you rasa or apa yang buat tu betul,

but remember you at the same time tengah ambil masa orang lain tau tak?

Goodnight everyone, have a good rest :)

Nobody compares //

Bila crush buat lawa bodo pastu dia gelak gelak and I tak gelak pun.

I tengok je dia gelak and dia tunduk bawah still gelak.

Pastu dia pandang I balik, mesti dia ingat I tengok tempat lain.

Padahal I still tengah tengok dia gelak.

Pastu dia sambung senyum macam malu.

Hadomak bapak comel sial.

"To have you in my prayer must be a beautiful thing"

Our trip to India! #1stDay

(I apologize if there's any missing informations during my trip. I barely recall them for now)

So it has been like 2 weeks since I got back from India.

I didn't have time to write any of these plus nak kena sort gambar and upload sini so makan masa.

Our trip was from 28th March until 4th April where I got back here on Tuesday 6.30am and went straight to UKM to attend my Contracts tutorial.

So, how was India?

One word : Great!

This entry shall consist details on our first day which was on 29th March.

My brother had this one driver waiting for us right 10am.

His name is Prakash and he drove this one bus (smaller than a bus actually) called "Traveller"

So basically, you may recognize a person or a group of people as tourist if you see them riding in those "Traveller" bus cause it is basically much cheaper and convenient than taking a taxi if you're planning to go for a 2 hours drive from Kolar to Bangalore

I forgot to mention that my brother and his wife lived in Kolar.

It's a small town in Karnataka and the nearest city is Bangalore.

So on our first day, we went to Bangalore! :)

For shopping actually.

There he is, Parakash!

Kolar

People in Kolar

The first store we got into that sells Saree :)

(( apparently my dad and I are not fond of shopping or waiting so we decided to go searching ice cream. We had mango flavor & I hate the fact the ice cream had milk > mango ))

more ice cream because you can't buy happiness but you can buy ice cream

the flavors

I forgot to mention : we went there with the family of my brother's wife

I think my brother prefers something healthy

The only restaurant here that has Thai food

Two women helped me to find my kurti

More fruits

He's paying for his suit at Van Heusen

Our ride!

The view of the neighborhood

Our supper before going home

The best cheese nan I had in my life!

It had only been a day but I had enough because of traffic jams, dehydrate for the first time, exhausted etc.

I kept asking my brother :

Why would there are 5 bumpers at a time?

Why there's "Please sound horn please"

Did I just see a man taking bath? 

I had no idea at first about their culture, I had no idea if taking bath in public is normal.

It was only my first day but there were too many questions on my mind.

I'll continue writing on our second day in India in the next entry!

#Askfm

"If you could draw happiness, what would it look like?"

I have no idea but I know I'm truly happy to go to a bookstore and spend most of my day looking for books even if it's a scratchy one. I know I'm happy to hold those stationaries eventhough I know I still have lot of pens yang tak pakai lagi, bunch of highlighters yang still terang etc

and I rasa quite happy sekarang because I bought a metal drink bottle kat Typo NU Sentral few hours before my train. I'm gonna name it later

ain't she a beauty? omg did I say she :O

(worth RM75.00)

I also find my state of happiness bila dah punch my touch-n-go kat ktm and within 5 mins train dah sampai hewhewhew

Maybe I'm more happier right now bila kakak ipar duduk sekali dengan my family and decided to give birth dekat sini which means meja makan akan bertambah lagi satu kerusi and I don't mind kena setup meja yang ada 6 pinggan, 6 gelas :)

Hurm there are just lot of stuff yang buat I happy even if it is tiny little piece of stuff like pergi rumah orang and diorang hidang tea instead of coffee or any cold drinks

and maybe I am happy when people say yes whenever I ajak pergi makan or just hang around kat Bangi Gateway cause I want to check kalau kalau Memories by Lang Leav dah restocked kat situ (can't do this anymore sebab baucer buku dah habis pakai lol hehe)

at times I tak tahu nak happy or "lol" bila cari nama sendiri kat urban dictionary (which is not reliable) :

or maybe I lagi happy bila tengah stress and cuba menenangkan diri sebab taknak stress and meroyan and ada this one friend yang offer nak ambik and have dinner with me and by the end of the night I find myself laugh rolling on the floor with some other friend of her cause they are just so funny

I cannot draw happiness, it is impossible and doesn't make sense at all to draw any situation that I would like it to happen in a good way.

You see I'm trying to live my own life and despite all the hardship and bullshit I've gone through everyday, I find myself growing up and getting better (I think so)

and part of my happiness could be this blog of mine, I wrote everything here yang some of my real friends pun tak tahu or even my family lol so goodnight xoxo

Love,
T

*screaming insides*

Gosh I'll start saving to buy this man I'll do whatever it takes

Why Teah

Hello everyone!

Sorry for not writing and it has been like 3 weeks isn't it?

The thing is, there are just lot of stuff I nak tulis : mock trial thingy, my trip to India, my ups & down for these past 6 weeks in LLB, an old book that I bought at MPH cause I like the contents etc.

BUT.

First thing first, I wanna write what's on my mind right now like LITERALLY right now (or the past few days)

I had a huge crush on this guy in my class since I entered LLB and YES I KNOW I SHOULDN'T DO THAT CAUSE I DON'T REALLY HAVE TO DO THAT but whatever I can't help myself.

I decided to tell my mom and all the family members the minute I got home.

I ended up my story by saying "Just simpan dia dalam doa, Dida kata macam tu lagi baik" to calm everyone lagi lagi my mom.

She knew what happened in the past and kept saying "Taknak dengar benda yang sama macam haritu"

I told her nothing in this world is guaranteed except death (Kanye, 2015)

All I could do for now is to live and study, gather with some friends and read good books.

In the meantime, I knew whom this heart is supposed to be saved for selain Allah.

I bukannya nak tegaskan like "kalau ada jodoh, ada lah"

It is just I would like to stress on "I'm going to work my ass for my career & future but in the same time let me have your name in my Dua"

So that's it I'm going to continue writing tomorrow's night or the following night cause I'm actually at home enjoying my mid-semester break so goodnight! :)