Hello!

Right now it is my midsem break and I've got so much thing going around.

It is only week 8 for God's sake.

Lemme start with the law courses first, they are awful and I have no idea why I said that they are just too much I have no idea if I'm such an idiot or they are just so many things to remember.

and I managed to pass my driving test Thanks God and I decided to buy a car after discussing this with my family and I'm glad my dad was more than willing to handle everything. 

and I am expecting news from a university in Philipines for my student exchange programme next semester (don't ask me idk if I'm bipolar or losing my mind I just decided on it). I love how they being so responsive to everything.

and the weather was terrific, I'm at college for now even tengah midsem break cause I got to study for a few subjects for upcoming tests (fml)

I think that's all for now, oh I forgot to tell you my family and I decided to adopt another kitten in the house :)

Have a nice day :)

updated on 8 November 2016 1349

I was looking for perfumes (gifts for my parents) with Anis just now at Bangi Gateway.

While wandering around, email masuk.

I was waiting for this moment and Anis cakap "Bukaklah bukaklah Teah!"

Getting into this kind of programme could be a blessing and challenging at the same time, let's just pray for the best! 

#After Quotes

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.

I bring out the worst in you, but you bring out the best in me.

Just because he can't love you the way you want him to, doesn't mean he doesn't love you with everything he has.

If two people love each other, there can be no happy end to it.

I'd always come back to you.

They didn't agree on much. In fact, they didn't agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other each day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other. 

You're more to me than some adolescent title.

This Town //

If the whole world was watching

I'd still dance with you

Drive highways and byways

To be there with you

Over and over the only truth

Everything comes back to you

Recent Updates

Ada lagi sebulan before sembreak berakhir.

I had a lot of stuff lately tapi macam tak tahu nak put into words so let me just list out things that I've done so far :

1. Semalam I ambik computer test for lesen L kereta. A night before I tidur lambat and still memorizing before tidur sampai kakak I cakap "Macam nak final" yasss everyone cakap I could score sebab test tu senang nak passed. I actually practised so many times (like 10 times) kat website JPJ (so cool they provide us questions that are usually asked!! everyone should check em out if you're so lazy to read the thick book they provided) The minimum score is 42 out of 50 questions and Alhamdulillah I obtained 47 and was so happy tapi bila sampai rumah my Dad tanya "Kenapa tak fullmark?" LOL my dad is soooo asian like kalau soalan ada 50 dia nak I betul 51 hahaha.
   
   I failed the first time I did the test lol but perfect practice makes perfect isn't it
   Check this out : http://jpjkpptest.com
   The site not only provide questions but also tell you the perfect answers with a perfect reason!
   
   
2. and on the same day before my computer test, my mom, my sister & I bawak my cat pergi cucuk vaksin as stated kat buku appointment dia. The first thing bila masuk klinik, everyone was asking "Nak tengok" followed by "Gemuknya. Cantiknya". Penat my mom cakap "Biase biase je kucing pasar" hahaha I kembang tak terkira yer laa I kan tuan dia. My cat behaved perfectly even masa kena cucuk. She looks so different bila dengan strangers like tak banyak bunyi, duduk setempat, behave je. I wish she's like that bila kat rumah lol.
3. Last night I emailed every publishers I could get for my lawbooks and most of them replied this morning and I'm so glad when some of them asking for my address which means that the law books that I requested are available. I don't know man I got a thing when it comes to email like when an organization or even a person or friend putting on effort to send me or reply my words through email it's kind of giving me a great feeling like wadduppp let's keep this professional and email each other lol
4. Harini my mom, my sister & I baking after lunch sampailah malam. Like my mom baked 2 cakes and kakak I buat cupcakes and I chose to help em as much as I could. Kitaorang bukannya baking suka suka it's just that we got a wedding to attend tomorrow. I don't remember which entry did I post regarding my sister punya kawan yang kehilangan ayah but it should be somewhere here in this blog. So yeah we're going to the same house tomorrow located in Ayer Hitam, Kedah. About the cakes and cupcakes, I offered both of my mother and sister to design and print out something untuk letak atas bekak kek tu so it looks more proper as a gift eventhough they are just food :)

Ain't this looks really good!!! *proud sister*

I think that's all for now eventhough macam banyak sebenarnya nak update like regarding my rent house with a friend, family etc.

Goodnight & sleep well everyone :)

MPH Online

I have no chill when it comes to a new semester!

There are so many things I kena selesaikan before 5th September eg 

• lesen kereta (where I'll be attending ceramah 6 jam starting this Sunday)
• cari rumah sewa (I have found a good one but still tengah discuss with my parents)
• result final exam of the second semester (keluar around 3rd August please doakan)
• JPA scholarship (result permohonan keluar next week on 29th July please doakan)
• ...lastly my law books 

I know I know lesen kereta sepatutnya boleh settle lepas habis SPM and it's my fault sebab tak pernah beratkan hal ni.

Another problem pasal buku ni I macam ya ampun sikit like my friend gave me a list of 9 books that we at least have em' but then out of 9 I just jumpa 3 je kat MPH.

No. 2, no. 8 & no. 9 jeee ada *sigh*

*more sigh*

Seee, for the Jenayah Homisid alone I have to wait for at least 4 weeks, that's why I risau for other books as well, like they don't really publish these days and that's the problems.

There's no way for us to ask books and buy from seniors sebab diaorang pun pakai buku tu untuk practice nanti *sigh*

By the way you guys should try order from MPH like if you really need the book asap and you tak tahu if that particular MPH store ada ke tak buku yang you nak, they can arrange the book for you and deliver terus for at least a week.

Like haritu I pergi MPH KL Sentral looking for Contract Law in Malaysia by Aisyah Chua tapi tak ada so I pun tanya kat kaunter if there's any other branches yang still ada stock and nasib baik MPH Mid Valley still ada buku tu.

But that takes a lot of work so why not you just order kat website dia and they will try to find the books that you need plus they came in a good shape and conditions as well sebab each book wrapped with a plastic before wrapped again dengan bubble-wrap and not to forget it is free delivery! :)

This is the example like haritu I purchased three statutes before exam :

Now I'm not sure I tulis entry ni for kekesalan tak jumpa buku or promote MPH Online lol toodles

Top pre-orders on MPH website is so tempting!

----------- updated on 27th July 2327 -----------

I emailed the staff this evening asking about two books that currently not in stock and it states that I have to wait for 4-6 weeks to get the book (literally can't wait when it comes to book!)

The staff replied me within an hour and I feel so much relieved to find they actually respond to my concern :)

Rapuh

"Kalau rindu, tegur"

"If you really wanna say something, approach that person. It is never too late, Teah"

"So what kalau dah lost contact? That's why kena tegur"

Ini bukan pasal ego ke apa, I just don't have any reasons to talk to him again.

I have no motive or ideas what to say or how to continue the conversation if I start to approach him.

I ada baca blog Anis, the least you could do bila you tengah rindu mana-mana hamba Allah, you doa untuk dia.

So I pray for him, I pun tak tahu what the exact words nak berdoa sebab I tak tahu apa yang dia tengah gone through sekarang.

I don't know if he's happy, if he's sad, or worse if he's in a state of oblivious.

I don't know what he's dealing right now or what stuff bothering him these days.

The least I could do maybe berdoa mintak Allah permudahkan urusan dia as a student, lindungi dia bila nak pergi kelas and maybe doa mintak Allah tenangkan hati dia masa nak belajar.

Both of us are students so I know exactly how he used to tell me apa yang dia rasa.

Maybe I am no longer the person who used to be the one yang dengar apa rungutan dia as a friend, as his partner etc

Maybe I nampak macam tak kisah or don't give a shit about him,

but deep inside me, there's still piece of him that I still care about.

Calm Before The Storm

Before I left the vacancy in his room,

I had to ask him the one question

thats been on the tip of my tongue,

since the day our souls crossed.

"Do you see me in your future?"

and right before he answered,

we were greeted by a prolonged silence

that overstayed its welcome when the words

"I don't know"

slipped through his dry lips.

I knew that nothing else that came out of his mouth would matter anymore.

Because I already found all of my answers,

in the absence of sound

between my curiosity and his uncertainty.

Literally Ache

when I first met you

you were nothing more than another face

but 6 months later

you're the only face I could ever find in a crowded place

do you ever just smell an old perfume

or hear an old song

or pass an old hangout spot and kinda break inside for a couple minutes

because I do

but then I realize, no amount of guilt can change the past

& no amount of anxiety can change the future.

how strange is that after all that

we are strangers again

I thought we were on the same page

but I guess we were reading different books

things change and people leave

maybe I should focus on the people who stay

focus on the ones who choose to grow with me

#Respect

Hello everyone!

How was your Ramadhan? Mine was great like I managed to bake 3 kinds of cookies for Hari Raya *applause to me* 

I'm not sure if I did the right thing at first cause after all I just pernah buat Almond London maybe because its too simple.

but at some point I rasa macam nak buat choclate chip cookies (which is simple too) and also another traditional cookies, mazola.

Mazola wasn't that easy, trust me duh!

The thing is tak payah pakai butter and that's what makes things complicated, I have to use corn oil where there was nowhere in the recipe stated how much do I need.

The situation is I letak sikit and my mom cakap "letak la banyak sikit" and I letak banyak and dough jadi lembik I was like crap.

My mom dah macam give up but I belum lagi so I letak tepung gandum sikit sikit to bring back the dough (dough why u do this to me) and taraaa now everyone in the house cakap sedap like nothing bad was happened lewl.

The learning process was hard, banyak benda I tak tahu like I could actually argue with my mom like she expected me to know everything but then I tau I tengah belajar so I kept on silence and respect her words.

That's it, some people don't even respect the eldest these days.

That's what I'm going to talk about this morning.

My mom told me sometimes it is okay for you to have your mom as your bestfriend, but there is still boundaries.

I used to have a teacher back in my primary school but our of school, she was my parent's bestfriend so no matter what was going on between us, I still had to respect her at school by not taking advantage on her.

The same thing when you're in your workplace, even if that person is your bestfriend or BFF but he's your boss at the same time, you're going to respect and to talk to her like other people did.

or when you're grouping with your bestfriend, you don't take advantage on her or him by asking that person do your part.

Respect is part of our courtesy, and yet it seems hard to see one now.

and sometimes people often forget to respect other people's feelings, even if it does not mean anything to you, it could mean everything to them.

Seek respect, not attention.

Believe me, it lasts longer.

King in The North

"There must always be a Stark in Winterfell"

Last night was the last episode of Season 6 Game of Thrones.

(I have to wait for another 10 months for a new season)

It was the longest episode for the TV series.

After the first season, we all knew there wasn't much good fortune for Stark.

It all started when King Robert invited Ned Stark to be his Hand of The King.

Maybe Sansa was true.

They should have never left Winterfell, they should have never left the North.

With Ned's death followed by his wife, Catelyn & Robb's death, it was tragic.

Sansa was been thrown to one House to another, she was betrothed to King Joffrey and then to another Lannister, Tyrion and not long after that handed to a Bolton.

Arya Stark got to find her own way, all alone by herself.

Bran & Rickon were the only Stark left in Winterfell but left after a traitor named Theon Greyjoy took Winterfell.

They should have never left Winterfell, none of them.

But to save the North, you don't have to be one of the Stark.

Episode 10 of Season 6 revealed who the hell is Jon Snow after all this time.

"You might not be a Stark but my blood run in you" - Ned.

He's the child of Ned Stark's sister, Lyanna Stark and Rhaegar Targaryen.

So the theory is true, R + L = J.

I can't wait for another season, seriously, I have no idea what to do now without GOT lol.

It is good to see all of the Houses belonged to the North now claim him as the King in The North.

It is good to see he fought against the Bolton during the previous episode "Battle of Bastards".

Seriously, I can't get enough of this show.

A Better Life, A Better Person

S e e    G O O D    i n    a l l    t h i n g s

That is one of my most favourite precept.

It helps me going through a bad day, really.

Doesn't matter what life has thrown upon you, 

there's this one voice in your head will be saying "It's okay" or "This is temporary" or "Everything will get back to normal"

I don't usually motivate myself to be patient, to tolerate other people,

but at some point I know I'm already 20, I need to control myself.

Whenever I'm having a bad day doesn't matter if the cause came from me or from nowhere,

I will try to find the tiny part of me to stay strong.

I pernah je few incidents yang buat I terduduk tepi katil and keep questioning "Why me?" or "Which part I salah?" or "I gave my best shot and it still wasn't enough?" 

Sometimes you miss the bus or train,

but it doesn't mean there is not other bus or train for you, there could be one.

Sometimes God let you in difficulty of choosing the right phase of my life,

at comes the day it led you to the wrong results,

but that doesn't make you a bad person.

Sometimes people left you behind for some other people,

but that doesn't mean you should go after them, there are some other people are waiting for your attention, and will give their attentions in return.

I believe whatever God have put us through,

it shall lead us to a better life, a better us.

You just have to sit back and see good in all things,

doesn't matter if it's good or bad.

of Semester Break & Random Precept

Semester break dah mula and I'm glad dah habiskan setahun first year law degree!

Guess what jadual final examination was damn crazy.

4 papers straight 4 hari and berselang pulak tu dengan kertas law *sigh*

Lepas dah habis all those 4 papers, semua orang tweet "Alhamdulillah dapat tidur" "Selalu berbuka nasi harini berbuka air lius basi" 

and then gap seminggu baru kertas yang last which is Contract Law II.

It went really good this semester but I have no idea what to expect for the result *sigh again*

Second semester kinda tough with all the PBL thingy, mock trial, more assignments, more cases need to be read even luar kelas, dengan takda boyfriend nak megadu (eh?) hahaha

Yes it has been over a year and I still don't have a boyfriend *sigh lagi and lagi*

Just forget it.

Now dah ada kat rumah and I'm quite happy, you know, I get to watch tv bila bila masa I suka, I get to eat food that I want, I get to cook anytime, I get to prepare nak buat kuih raya WITHOUT WORRYING ESOK KENA BALIK UKM KE TAK YA ALLAH NIKMATNYA :')

But still the main thing I kena buat is updating my blog, since masuk degree macam tak banyak sangat entry like I used to have them in my head tapi bila nak tulis kat blog cam tak boleh maybe sebab penat lepas balik kelas and stuff.

So starting today I would like to write on any random precept that I found in the internet. Like today I'm going to write on :

"Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy"

Okay this is so true.

I've been living for 20 years (this September) and please, do yourself a favor, respect yourself enough to remove any negative vibes that bring you down.

Like I have this one friend that I'm no longer be friend with because she used to bring misery in my life so I cut her off.

Harsh isn't it but that's the only thing I can do.

I have no time to confront her and give a piece of advice.

Biarlah kalau orang nak cakap "Oh nanti sikit lah kawan you kalau you cerewet"

Dear, it is not about sikit atau tidak, kita dah besar ni it is better to keep your circle small.

It is better kalau you ada seorang kawan pun but that person berguna bila you susah senang.

Bukannya kalau ada 100 kawan tapi bila you susah, none of them give a shit.

Tapi setakat ni Alhamdulillah Allah bagi I semua orang-orang yang boleh tolong I masa I susah and I will try help them back in return.

That's it, the first thing to do is to cut those people who no longer grows you to a better path.

Next is, move on from your past.

Yes hahahaha I susah sangat for this part but I always take Neb punya advice.

"You deserve to be happy. What's past is in the past, there's no way for you to bring it back"

In other words, what's in the past that no longer do good for you, leave it.

It takes time, might be longer but it will end soon.

Someday you're going to find yourself in a better state than yesterday.

That person you knew yesterday, the stranger you were talking last night, they don't even give a damn what you're doing today.

So why would you bother of putting them in the future? 

I've been through the same thing, but I know I'm getting better.

So that's it for now, tomorrow I will pick any random precept and try to write on it.

Goodnight xoxo

Friendly Reminder

I don't know how some people do this but if you dah berpakaian elok, dah menutup aurat, solat 5 waktu and obey all His orders, the least thing you could do might be jaga percakapan.

Orang selalu cakap communication is the key, to everything, I agree that.

So by hook or by crook, please jaga each and every word you're going to say.

Kita manusia rambut je sama hitam tapi hati lain-lain.

Kadang-kadang orang tak dapat tangkap pun jokes kita and mula lah sentap and everything.

How can you expect someone to respect you kalau first impression pun pasal the way you talk to other people kinda bad?

Nak buat lawak boleh, no problem, but me mature.

To speak everything that is in your head is your ultimate freedom, but there shall be a limit.

Jaga sensitivity orang lain like takkan lah you nak buat jokes pasal orang lain punya masa lampau?

I'm a cool person, the coolest person you ever met but once you dah go beyond your limit to speak something that is so sensitive to me, you're doomed.

Same goes to other people, entah-entah you tak sedar pun sebenarnya orang lain dah lama terasa dengan percakapan you, dengan jokes you yang nonsense tu.

Again, jaga percakapan, jangan bercakap melulu tanpa ada motif just untuk sakitkan hati orang.

You're not the only person living in this world.

If you don't have something nice to say, it is better for you to be silent.

Educate Yourself

When a question about a certain topic pops up, google it.
Watch movies and documentaries.

When something sparks your interest, read about it.
Read, read and read.

Study, learn and stimulate your brain.
Don't just rely on the school system.

Educate that beautiful mind of yours :)

Food Around Bangi

Entry kali ni I nak focus on restaurants around Bangi sebab dah ramai sangat tanya "Eh kat mana makan sedap eh kau kan orang Bangi" or "Eh selalu nampak check in kedai makan cer citer kedai mana sedap" so here we go :

1. Koh Samui

Located around seksyen 7 yang dekat dengan Pustaka Rakyat tu. I tau tempat ni pun sebab my friend yang bawak. They claimed makanan siam kat situ sedap and memang sedap pun and affordable. I paling suka tomyam dia masam masam tapi sedap and udang/sotong goreng tepung dia. Besttttt sangat tepung dia even udang or sotong kecik haha maybe sebab sos yang di bagi tu kena kot dengan hidangan (9/10)

2. Ana Ikan Bakar Petai

I'm not sure kedai ni area mana sebab selalu pergi malam so tau tau dah sampai haha masa first time masuk UKM I bawak my parents dinner sini sebab tengok kat internet ramai suggest. Makanan dia okay like you can choose seafood mana you nak and pergi timbang and order nak masak apa. Haritu amed datang Bangi pun I bawak dia dinner sini and yes dia pun suka. Paling famous ikan bakar petai and I suka sebab petai dia tak kuat sangat hehe (8/10)

3. Daidomon Japanese BBQ

I'm not sure kedai ni ada lagi ke tak kat Bangi Gateway. I jenis suka yang makan daging grill so kat sini memang best daging dia sebab perap, tak macam yang Seould Garden kan kering kontang hehe. Kalau Daidomon dia akan serve daging (somehow macam BBQ Town Midvalley) and daging dia macam empuk sikit pastu berair sikit but niceeee. Craving pula haha (10/10)

4. Old Malaya Kopitiam 

Yessssss I suka check in sini haha located kat Bangi Gateway and I tak tahu orang lain makan apa tapi I stick to one menu only, seafood carbonara. Trust me, sangat sedap and portion dia pun besar ( but I can literally have double haha) dia tak muak and seafood dia pun banyak (9.8/10)

5. Pecal Lele

Okay ni untuk lunch pula I dah bawak quite few friends pergi sini for lunch and semua berpuas hati. First time I pergi haritu dengan Deedee lepas I survey kat internet. Trust me, ayam penyet dia pergh pergh sedap, rangup and sambal dia pedas gilaaa so make sure you bawak tissue with you. Apart from that, ikan keli dia pun besar and yang suka daging tu boleh order daging bakar dia yang sangat juicyyy (9/10)

6. Big Brother Grill

Dulu sebelum tahu semua kedai makanan kat area Kajang or Bangi, I suka pergi sini dengan kawan mungkin sebab dekat dengan UKM sebab kat Bangi Gateway je pun. Lamb chop dia okay tapi Neb and I paling suka Chicken Parmigiana dia. Carbonara dia I pernah try tapi tak segempak OMK hehe (7/10)

7. Teh Tarik Place 

Okay ni pun kat Bangi Gateway hahaha I pergi haritu pun dengan Izlyn & Anis and nasi kerabu dia sedap sangat maybe sebab portion dia besar and tempat dia nice untuk lepak lepak (6/10)

Ada lagi quite a few tapi tak berapa nak ingat but for now those yang I boleh list kan haha but no worries if I dah ingat and pergi, I will update it soon enough!

Heartthrob

That calming feeling when you have just cried your eyes out in sujood,

and everything is so quiet and peaceful.

and you know it is going to be okay,

because Allah heard your desperate call.

I sampai KL Sentral around 9.50AM and terhuyung hayang pergi komuter sebab baru bangun tidur.

Itulah night before tu memang tak tidur.

Nice nice je check apps for komuter lagi 10 minit macam tu train sampai.

and then terus text Haziq mintak hantarkan driver around 11AM kat KTM.

Nice nice je pukul 10.55 dah sampai KTM UKM and Haziq cakap driver tunggu dekat gerai pisang goreng.

I suka kalau driver punctual lagi lagi bulan puasa ni panas kot kalau kena tunggu.

Dah masuk kereta Fauzan tanya itu ini and he was half forgotten I pernah naik kereta dia before ni and bla bla bla sampai bilik.

Okay lagi.

and then I tidur jap around 3PM I bangun and solat Zohor.

Lepas dah sapu muka masa berdoa, mula rasa sebak.

First day balik UKM dari rumah memang akan macam ni haha but I know I will be doing fine.

Masa dah naik train tadi pun sempat lagi call my mom cakap mintak dia berdiri kat tempat yang kitorang tunggu train sebab nak waving kat dia.

It was great to see their smiles again and again walaupun tiap-tiap weekend I balik.

I don't know, I just love them so much I can't bear to think a day without both of my parents.

They are getting old, our family circle getting bigger.

I've talked to mom about this like how I should not bermanja sakan dengan dia sebab dah besar and she cried so hard.

Semalam masa berbuka she kept asking whether I will be okay berbuka kat UKM sesorang sebab Neb and Anis kolej lain.

I said I will be doing fine.

But I know I don't feel any good bila masa berbuka tadi dalam bilik sambil tengok Tomorrowland, I miss them. 

I told my dad how I want him to stay with me bila I dah besar, dah ada rumah and kereta.

I told both of them I promised akan bawak diaorang travel oversea, just three of us.

There is a strong bond between me and my parents, it's just not something about ikatan persaudaraan ke apa, I feel they are more than that, sometimes I rasa we are friends.

I will be doing fine, finals start esok.

Wish me luck.

Last word, kalau lah boleh jawab exam kat rumah and pos laju jawapan, I will be the first person to do that without any hesitations.

May the justice be with you!

I found this when I was looking for cases on fundamental liberties.

I love how these people put the provisions and the cases, it looks pretty simple and easy!

Happy finals everyone & good luck!

May the justice be with you :)

Commit

I remembered you in my prayers, so I prolonged my sujood.

The word love in the Quran,
appears in over 90 places.

But interestingly,
it doesn't define the word love.

but speaks about the very first consequence of love,
commitment.

Islam talks about commitment,
if you truly love something or someone,
you commit.

If you do not,
then your claim or real love is not real at all.

Dream Space

It has been such a long time since I post my entry on apartment.

Obviously I don't own one but I do dreaming it!

Selain account Instragram anjing, I pun ada follow account yang bercirikan apartment like urbanoutfitters & apartmenttherapy so here are some of the pictures I took from those accounts as my main inspirations! 

my mom cakap selain manusia & kucing, kena ada benda hidup yang lain seperti green plants!

I nak kelambu & string lights kat katil but keep it simple & I love this kind of bedsheet sangat minimize corak dia

More plants!

more string lights kat luar rumah

lightbulbs yang gantung macam tu & more green plants

pokok yang bergantungan

nak book shelves yang macam tu pastu letak buku & green plants!

more cactus

private space untuk study or buat kerja (separated with my husband's lol)

simple dining table tapi mesti ada carpet

a fireplace

divider between ruang tamu & dining hall

simple bedroom with large window

& "Don't give up the ship" macam deep bunyi dia like someday kalau I gaduh dengan my husband I will pull him to our bedroom and say the words out loud lol

green palnts berjuntaian kat bathroom

staircase tu wajib

ada stools kat counter

Ain't these beautiful? 

I will write more on my apartments goals, soon enough!