of bertunang & kisah Opah

Sooo last few days were really hectic for me.

On the weekend, my sister and I were busy preparing for Kakak Wa's engagement kenduri etc.

Alhamdulillah everything went perfect.

It was my 2nd time pergi majlis bertunang as the first one was my brother's.

(( currently waiting for my pictures tapi photographer tak uplaod2 lagi lol ))

anddd after majlis tu which was on Sunday, I went back home and took few hours of napping around 4-6pm.

until my mom woke me up and cakap nak balik kampung.

I wasn't quite sedar masa tu or tak fully awake lagi so kinda blurred bila semua orang tengah packing while I was there doing nothing.

and yes my mom decided nak bawak my cat sekali so yeah.

Kitorang sampai Felda dalam pukul 9 malam and Opah was so happy to see us.

Late night dinner with Opah, Aki, Makcik & Iman (my little cousin, anak Makcik).

Dalam pukul 12 tengah malam semua orang masuk tidur.

and I couldn't sleep at all.

I have a problem when berubah tempat tidur, and that is actually a serious issue.

Around 2 o'clock my cat dalam sangkar berbunyi so I checked her out.

She was staring up the ceiling and I pun tengok and it was like something moving around the roof.

So yeah I took the leash and bawak kelaur my cat and bawak dia pergi tempat tidur lol it was really scary tho.

Both of us couldn't sleep and kakak bangun and she decided to stay awake and looked after my cat which was really great cause I got to watch Dee Kosh on YouTube lol.

Around 4 baru tidur and bangun subuh around 6.30am and tolong my Mom and Opah sediakan breakfast which was quite heavy : bihun goreng, nasi goreng, roti canai (requested by me).

while preparing for the food, Opah were very exciting to tell us that the next morning she's going to Cameron with her family.

Opah and Aki got married around December 2012, a couple of months after my grandma meninggal dunia and Aki was left alone.

So basically Opah was attached to 2 families, hers and Aki's family.

Apparently the next morning which was today (Tuesday), while Iman and I were watching TV and saying this to each other "Iman mesti best kan kalau dapat makan ais krim sekarang"

"Haah pastu kepit dengan roti burger"

"Pastu letak kacang sikit"

Hmm.

and then Opah pun balik.

We knew she went to her house that morning but I was totally forgotten she was supposed to go to Cameron.

She came home with 2 Buttercups (margerin buat kek for those yang tak tau) and aiskrim.

Nice, I tak faham macam mana dia boleh telepati what was in my mind just now.

So Iman and I took our seats at the table and makan ais krim and kept asking Opah how did she knew we wanted ice cream lol.

and... her family datang petang tu.

and... I saw ada bungkusan fresh vegetables kat dapur.

After we had our dinner, I asked Makcik and my mom "Bukan ke Opah patut nya pergi Cameron?"

"Ya Allah tak tahu ke? Anak-anak dia dah bertolak baru call."

"Tanpa Opah?"

"Yer"

Wow that was absolutely wow.

I have no idea what was going on with the family tapi macam dah melampau.

Like 2015 punya Raya Opah was supposed to celebrate Raya with her family.

Tapi bila dia balik rumah, no one was there.

and this time anak-anak dia made a promise to go somewhere with her, 

tapi last-last dah sampai mana-mana baru call, which was quite irrelevant kalau terlupa, mak sendiri kot?

One thing I know about Opah, and yes everyone else in my family pun macam sedar.

Dia tak pernah tunjuk dia terasa dengan family dia.

I bersyukur sebenarnya dia masuk keluarga I, at least we knew we had saved someone from those people yang tak hargai dia.

At least she knew she always have another family yang dia boleh datang balik bila her own family macam tak nak dia.

I rasa marah sangat tapi bila fikir balik, tak elok campur dalam hal keluarga orang.

Maybe Opah has her own way to tolerate with her family members, but once again, I'm quite disappointed.

For those out there yang rasa macam dah jauh sangat from your parents,

I ingat lagi pesan cikgu I.

Bila you dah besar, you dah bergaji, you dah ada rumah sendiri, you dah ada tanggungjawab sendiri,

You jangan lupa your parents.

Yes, they might be saying "Go have fun, you have worked hard all these years"

Yet you still need their blessings.

While you're growing your own world, career, family and stuff,

please remember that they are growing old too.

Five Things People Normally Hard to Accept

Your skin never be perfect,

and that's okay.

Life is too short not to have the underwear, the coffee/tea & the haircut you want.

Everyone including your family, your coworkers and your best friend,

they will talk behind your back and you will talk about them too.

It doesn't mean you don't love each other.

It is absolutely okay to spend money on things that make you happy.

Sometimes without fault or reason, relationships deteriorate.

It will happen when you're six, it will happen when you're sixty, that's life.

You see, there will be many reasons seemingly to not do that thing you want to. There will be severe pressure from your people, your own apprehensions, anything. But if you are sure about what you want, you should go ahead and do it but at the same time try not to let your happiness depend so much on what color your hair is, or what tattoo you didn't get. I'm sure nobody is against you being happy, they just have their opinions and expectations, but guess what. In the end, it's your life so go ahead and do what your really want. - dothisnow_

Part of me :)

All those little moments?

They aren't little.

2012-2013

Good memories with great people :)

p/s too bad I lost most of the pictures with my dormates, gotta dig any folders soon.

More Than Words //

To be honest it has been a while since I made cards, wrapped any special gifts etc.
To put them into words : It has been a while since I showed my appreciation to someone.

For example, I forgot Aishah's birthday.
For God's sake, she decided to ignore me for the past few months and only talked to me few days sebelum final.

I asked her why and she said "seriously man you forgot my birthday! and you asked when was my birthday on my fucking birthday and the next day I knew that you were actually going out having some fun with some family! serious man on my birthday?"

WOW okay I never knew it is really a big deal to her.
YES she came all the way on September to make surprise on my birthday but I TOTALLY FORGOT HER BLOODY BIRTHDAY because I was busy (in other words, I was too ignorant)

I have no idea what was wrong with me in the past few months.
I used to be a sweet person, a person that will provide all the good stuff like a santa for a sad person (no Aishah I'm not saying you're a sad person)

I used to be the one willingly gave out my best advices to those in need.
I know now i'm not that person anymore.

but that doesn't stop me, I don't want any silly mistakes like this ever happens again, I don't want any minute that will change my friendship with anyone.

I might need a planner, I might need a calendar, a proper schedule that will balance my study, my works, my readings & my inter-personel relation with humans.

I might need to be more sensible with people around me, not just with the bodies, but with their feelings too.

I need to get back to the old me, the sweet one.

Harry

I'm currently at home having a good day ahead in my entire life, Alhamdulillah :)))
I've got so much things nak tulis tapi macam takda mood lagi (seriously I would like to write what happened during the mock trial practices last week) but hold up, lemme first talk about a bag that I recently purchased from Typo :)

On my last day practices which was on Tuesday, I was supposedly pergi practice around 2.30pm but then Izlyn called and cakap to get ready by 2.30 bla bla bla so I skipped my practice :))

but nevermind, thanks to her we went to ioi and masuk Typo sekejap after makan kat Boat Noodle.
She had not eaten her lunch because no one was home.

"I was like betul ke taknak nasi you haven't eaten anything kot"

Kitaorang keluar masuk Typo 3 kali sebab I couldn't make up my minds lol I've got too anxious when it comes to bag.

At first I was actually looking for a casing, for my laptop ofcourse.

yes it is for a 13-inch laptop and it is sooo perfect I'll tell you.

but then I was thinking I wasn't actually searching for a case, I need a bag.

A bag that I'll be using for my next semester : to class, fieldworks, a bag that could tampung all my stuff especially my laptop cause I bring it anywhere.

So the casing was not a perfect ten so I kept wandering in the store.

Taylor & Harry

Izlyn got myself to choose Harry instead of Taylor cause she claimed that all my stuff are already black, I need more colours in life so let's start with brown :)

The thing is, I didn't realize Harry is for men.

I went straight back home introducing Harry to my family (half forgotten about my Voir handbag) only then I found a blog wrote a review about Harry.

(https://johnphilphoto.wordpress.com/)

I don't mind actually, I knew from the start I'm already into men's stuff eg wallet & all.

They are so simple & classy that I could bring it anywhere and tell my friends "Hey everyone, this is Harry" :D

Have a look on other bags of Typo, they are quite good anyway :

https://www.facebook.com/typoshop

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This is how I look with Harry, like some kind of barrister lol

you're becoming a dream to me
fairytale fantasy
nothing can ever compare
an image to my memory

boy i'm asking can I be your queen?
a vision on a magazine
that's when I'll be there
it's something we both share

- from Chris Brown to Rihanna in their remix of Umbrella

Adios Semester 1!

Who needs a semester break when you're too cool to have a break?

Nuh I'm kidding.

Believe it or not I'll spend almost the entire semester break in UKM.

I'll be having a month of Mock Trial practices & sambung dengan perkampungan for the preparations nak pergi Aceh this April, In Sha Allah.

So last Tuesday I had my last paper on Malaysian Legal System tapi tak tenang a night before.

"I need to pass the key by tomorrow morning but then train at 9 which means I need to be at KL Sentral before 9 which means I need to go out at 7 something which means office tak bukak lagi oh crap!"

"I need to move some of my stuff kat kolej Yaya sebab tak boleh masuk my own college after I pass the key omg things getting more complicated."

"But I have no transport to move all my stuff sigh"

"and I need to change the former address for my online shopping on the SESERI sweatshirt but then nak move kepada nama siapa?"

See? I nak hadap paper pun tak senang cause there were too many things in my mind.

But I knew I need to get through this before going back to Amed's house in Manjung & having some fun.

But syukur Alhamdulillah time time susah and serabut macam ni, bila I mintak tolong some of my friends to help me, none of them said no.

"Sure Teah, bagi tau je bila nak gerak pindah barang. Nanti aku tunggu kat parking kereta"

Thank you Syideen, you're the man.

"Boleh je letak barang kau kat bilik aku, meh je hantar"

Thanks Yaya, you never disappoint me :)

"So I just need to pass the key and pay the room rent right? Sure no problem. Just wake me up whenever you dah nak gerak"

Thank you Kisan, you're such a good neighbor!

"My college punya office bukak masa cuti and it's okay if you want to put me as the recipient for your shopping"

Thank you Praba, you help me alot!

Maybe betul apa yang my mom cakap.

You nak buat baik, you don't need any reason for that.

Cause you will understand bila masa you susah and that time Allah kasi pertolongan kat you in a way you tak terfikir pun.

I'm glad to be surrounded by all of these good people around me :)

and I'm so happy final dah habis, 3 minggu kot, lama kot haha!

So I spent 2 nights at Amed's house.

Thank you Amed and her family, baik sangat.

Which reminds me to Mel's family, tak pernah rasa terasing pun whenever I go to her house.

So thanks for those who helped me a lot to get through the first semester (7 semesters to go + 9 moths chambering)

I pray each and everyone of you a better semester ahead, In Sha Allah :)

p/s sneak peek on my 2nd semester subjects :

White House movies

I saw this one guy posted on Twitter something about White House, Pentagon etc.

I was like "The thing about US might not answering any of the exam papers but nak tengok jugak"

Olympus Has Fallen (2013)

White House Down (2013)

Two movies regarding the White House at the same year, this is really tough to choose.

I watched the Olympus Has Fallen first and only then I went to proceed the White House Down.

Both of the movies are really great, with a slight difference on the storyline.

Like in the Olympus Has Fallen, it is about how the terrorists coming from the North Korea took over the White House, and there's this special secret agent as the hero and the Mr President is saved.

As for the White House Down, the story is a little bit different.

The ones who took over the office wasn't a terrorist like the Americans have expected ie Al Qaeda etc.

The 'terrorists' were americans and had a conspiracy to gain $400 million owned by the office and yes like any other movies, it is not actually about money.

But the best part is, the movie isn't as thriller as Olympus Has Fallen.

There were funny scenes and the Mr President wasn't passive.

He got shots, died few times and talked like a normal ghetto, omg I really like Jamie Foxx.

but the best part was, the hero wasn't a secret or special agent.

Channing Tatum was just a normal guy, an ordinary army who dropped out from the university few times and he at least got 2 years experience in the Iran.

That's all he got as a hero but save the Mr President, and yes his daughter too and I guess that's what made the movie kind of interesting compared to Olympus Has Fallen.

You might not agree with me but yeah what can I say I'm still waiting for the sequels of the Olympus Has Fallen which is London Has Fallen expected March 2016.

Stay tuned folks!

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However, the Olympus Has Fallen has left such a great impact on my mind.

It made me think why the North Koreans hate US so much that they tend to take over the office?

I went through some articles and travelogs about the North Korea.

Believe it or not, I never expected the country is seriously that worst.

This one blog "Wait But Why" where the writer was a tourist when we went to North Korea.

He's so amazing, he took some pictures of the poor when it is against the rules in that country lol.

Propaganda everywhere.

There's a rule where if you wanna take the pictures of the two brothers, you gotta take em from the top to the bottom, no crop etc.

Farming activities on the road.

This building is considered as the nicest one in the most beautiful city called Pyongyang.

"Built in the Soviet Era, rotting ever since"

No traffic light? No problem!

I have no idea if this is a bus or a train because obviously where are the tyres?

The two bros everywhere.

Everywhere.

No internet access, the life in the picture looks like in the 1990s.

I wanna read more on this country cause I have zero knowledge why is it being so protective and isolated themselves from outside the world?

There's so much questions in my mind that I desperately need the answers by now but I don't have much time since I've got one more paper this Tuesday and there's so much stuff I need to read for the paper.

Adios!

Screaming on the inside

your face is all over the place
memories of you I can't replace

and I'm dying inside & I don't know how to hide
believe me, I've tried

maybe if you knew my pain
maybe you'd feel the same

maybe you'll cry my name
every time I walked away

would you, could you have trouble falling asleep?
if you knew what I'm going through

if I could only switch hearts with you.

Mountains Appreciation Post :)