To put them into words : It has been a while since I showed my appreciation to someone.
For example, I forgot Aishah's birthday.
For God's sake, she decided to ignore me for the past few months and only talked to me few days sebelum final.
I asked her why and she said "seriously man you forgot my birthday! and you asked when was my birthday on my fucking birthday and the next day I knew that you were actually going out having some fun with some family! serious man on my birthday?"
WOW okay I never knew it is really a big deal to her.
YES she came all the way on September to make surprise on my birthday but I TOTALLY FORGOT HER BLOODY BIRTHDAY because I was busy (in other words, I was too ignorant)
I have no idea what was wrong with me in the past few months.
I used to be a sweet person, a person that will provide all the good stuff like a santa for a sad person (no Aishah I'm not saying you're a sad person)
I used to be the one willingly gave out my best advices to those in need.
I know now i'm not that person anymore.
but that doesn't stop me, I don't want any silly mistakes like this ever happens again, I don't want any minute that will change my friendship with anyone.
I might need a planner, I might need a calendar, a proper schedule that will balance my study, my works, my readings & my inter-personel relation with humans.
I might need to be more sensible with people around me, not just with the bodies, but with their feelings too.
I need to get back to the old me, the sweet one.
