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Most days I mange my feelings but other days I just want to disappear. It gets so intense that the only thing that helps is shutting my self in my room. I turn of the lights and block all noises. I stay there until I stop pacing. On my bad days people irritate me more and the everything falls apart. I loose tack of time and my perspective on life. What I really want is to go away, keep walking until I am in a place where I don't know anyone and no one bothers me, a place of no direction or objective. I want to run away and break all connection to everyone and everything I know. I am detached in all of my relationships, but many depend on me and I know it would not be fair to simply disappear from their lives. In childhood I used to wonder off until the adults would drag me back, later i used to run away for days (just walking in the city), but then i would remember that my sibling and parents would worry and I knew they didn't deserve that. I don't have big issues or a horrible life style and I don't lack confidence or struggle with insecurities, I just want to go away, and not to be bothered.
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